After giving birth to my daughter I found myself in a frustrating position. My life had changed. I was a new mother with twenty extra pounds packed on to random body parts. Our business was growing steadily, we were working on our first storefront and I was trying to be super mom, super business owner, and super wife. On top of that, I was trying to get back into shape, eat healthy, continue my education and drink some damn beer. Thirty-nine weeks without a relaxing alcoholic beverage was nerve wrecking!
I was overwhelmed. In my mind, I believed every role I decided to fill was what a “perfect” mother, wife and business owner would do. But in the end, I fell apart more often than not. Some blamed the stress of a dramatic life change, but I truly believe it was because I wasn’t staying true to myself.
I decided one day that I was done. Done being the “victim” of circumstance. Done being afraid of criticism. Done being insecure. I was just done with the bullshit. I decided to do the things that brought out the best in me. I opted to read books more often, started a journal, dedicated more time to Muay Thai and made little changes to simplify and organize my life. It was a slow process, but I started to find happiness in all the frustration. And when this happened, everything that I’ve wanted started to fall slowly into place. I no longer longed for materialistic things, but found contentment in having peace of mind.
These days, I honestly find beauty in everyone and in everything. Sometimes I have to look a little harder, but there’s always something awesome in everything. We really should put aside the need for perfection. It is an unrealistic journey and those who travel it will only find disappointment and complete madness.
Let’s face it - Perfection is an empty goal, differences should never be considered flaws and ugly shouldn’t even be a word.